Well last time i posted, i told you all about my girlfriend Danielle. And I mentioned that the next time i posted, I'd tell you about what happened at her house.

Alrighty then, here goes. We spent a night at her house, then a night at mine, then a night at hers again. We were both laying in her bed and she was playing with her phone and i thought she was texting someone. Then she handed it to me and it was something along the lines of "would you ever kiss me?" and so that night we kept writing back and forth on her cell and I told her that even if I wanted to kiss her, I wouldnt b/c I'm too shy to make the first move. So we kept talking about how if I wanted to, I should just do it, but I'm too shy and all.

Then the next night we went back to my house, and stayed there two nights. Then went back to hers.

That night, she practically begged me to kiss her, but I cant. I'm too shy to kiss someone. I never make the first move. I just cant, I honestly cant even if I really really want to. Then I think she thought I didnt want to kiss her(I do want to, but i cant, so i want her to kiss me)and she said "well I dont want to pressure you into doing anything you dont want to do" and she got really sad, so I fell asleep. Then the next day I went babysitting with her, and spent the night again cuz she got all upset and asked me to stay another night. The next day, she had to work again, so she left about 5, and around 10 her dad brought me home.

See, the problem is, I really want to be able to kiss her and everything, but I'm super shy. I dont want her to think I dont want to, cuz I really do, its just after all the sexual abuse in my past, i'm nervous about being 'intimate' with someone, even if it is just a kiss, I get scared. I do love this girl though, and I just wish I knew what to do...

Well so thats my uneventful stay with her..

Hugs and Kisses,
Lady J