Okay everyone, if anyone still comes here, I am so sorry that i havent posted in a while!! plz 4give me! lol, so heres an update on my life.

I am single again. I still miss my ex-bf, but i refuse to give in, when i know that i will never be completely happy with him. I ended our relationship, and i cannot begin something like that again knowing it will never get anywhere. We are still friends and we talk on the phone everyday. He says he still loves me and i told him i loved him like a best friend, but nothing more, and he said that it would do, and i feel grateful that i am allowed my space, without completely cutting myself off from him.

Some of you also know, that in the past i have had a cutting problem. I am very proud to say that i havent cut in 1 1/2 months. This may not seem like much to you, but unless you have had this problem, then there is no way you would understand. I am very proud for trying my best to stop my terrible habit, but i still regret starting. I do occasionally feel the need to cut again, at least once a week i think about it, which is why i feel so proud not to have.

I am beginning the second semester in my 8th grade year, and i dont know all my final grades yet, but i know that i have a 92% average in my Language Arts Class(which most are failing), and i know that i have a 94% avg. in SS. So i know i will be in honors SS, and probably Language arts, but i wont know about Math and Science till the end of the year. I still am very proud of my grades. And i hope that i can keep them up, because the life i want and plan to have, starts with a college degree, which i wont have unless i get to work on my grades.

Over all, my life is going alright. I hope all of yours are going great too. If anyone wants to talk, i would LOVE to, you can either comment my blog, PM me, or get my e-mail address off my profile and e-mail me. i hope to talk to yall soon!

hugs and kisses,
-Lady J

I feel so un-loved!!!!!

This is a quiz i found on a friend of mines blogs on Myspace. Take it, lol....It's mostly meant for either guys or lesbian/bi-sexual gurls.

What would you do if I...
1. I made a move on you:
2. I kissed you:
3. I lived next door to you:
4. I started smoking:
5. I asked you on a date:
6. I was hospitalized:
7. I ran away from home:
8. I got into a fight and you weren't there:
9. I told you I loved you:
10. I asked you out:
Describe your..
9. Personality:
10. Eyes:
11. Hair:
12. Body:
What's your
13. Age
14. Gender
15. Location
16. Race
17. Favorite food
18. Favorite drink
19. Hobbies
20. Occupation
Have you ever...
21. Lied to make me feel better:
22. Wanted to kiss me:
23. Wanted to kill me:
24. Broke my heart:
25. Kept something important from me:
26. Wanted to do me:
And more...
27. Who are you:
28. Are we friends:
29. When and how did we meet:
30. Describe me in one word:
31. What was your first impression:
32. Do you still think that way about me now:
33. What reminds you of me:
34. If you could give me anything what would it be:
35. How well do you know me:
36. When's the last time you saw me:
37. Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't:
38. Are you gonna put this on yours to see what I say about you:
Would you...
39. Kiss me:
40. Makeout with me:
41. Cuddle with me:
42. Watch a stupid movie with me:
43. Hold me if I feel bad:

Hey everyone! well i decided to post a lil somethin, but i really dont have much to talk about cept that i have to break up with my bf tonight and it is going to be so hard for me. Please leave a comment i eed all the support i can get, i have been crying for days trying to decide, and i have to do this, no matter how bad i dont want to. Love you all.

hugs and kisses,
-J

Well, i have recently had a disagreement w/ a person on blogstream. I annot post the beginning of it, because, subsequently, she has deleted it. But the last 2 comments and her latest blog post, I can put up here. Some of you may agree w/ her, and that is fine, but i just needed to have this up here for me. I did, post a comment that said somethings about her opposing Bush and some other things that you would have had to read yourself. I would have gladly posted what i wrote, only she deleted it. I am not ashamed of what i said at all, an i just wanted to let u know that beforehand. Here goes:(after the comment i left her)

Her:
Bush sucks. America sucks. Goo Goo Dolls suck. What else can I say? You support this stupid country, the black pus spewing from our President's mouth, yet you have yet to understand one of MY amendments. I have the right to say what I want, and you did NOT have the authority to tell me I'm a bitch. You know...that really makes me angry. Americans chatter on and on about how our country has freedom and how good it is, yet people like YOU step on other's rights and spit in their face. I live on honor, on the Nihon way, so I refuse to call you what you rightfully deserve, but I will say that it is a shame to hear that from someone who sees themselves to be from such a righteous country. And how OLD are you anyway? Do you know you just swore like a sailor to a thirteen year old girl? C'mon, grow up.

ME:
Okay, i agreed with your blog up until u started to mess w/ bush, then i couldnt take it. I may have swore, but guess what u deserved it. i dont care how old you are, but for your information, i am 13. If you dont support this country go back to your own, we dont need our taxes, money, and support going to ungrateful bitches like you. I know that there are ppl who disagree with Bush's actions and i dont agree with all of them, but still i dont start going on about it bc we cant change it now anyways too. I havent stepped on your honor or spat in your face, but someone ought to because you are a bitch and i have the right to say what i want in this country. And what the fuck is the "Nihon" way? Nevermind i dont care. And for your fucking information, I dont need to grow up, honey, i am as grown up as i need to be, and probably more advanced than you mentally anyway, but you need to get your mind off a 9 yr. old level, if your supposedly 13. You are a disgrace to this country.

Her latest post, but not really her first:
Shall We Begin?(that is her title)

Ah, yes. My first blog. How shall I begin? Perhaps I should tell you about myself, so you may at least put somewhat of a description behind these words. I am only thirteen, and in the high school. I was, though I don't want to brag too much, booted up from the eighth grade and into the ninth. Anyway, I cannot release to you my whereabouts, for fear of someone I know finding this and persecuting me for any information I may tell. Some people can be so nosy... Anyway, besides my constant craving for knowledge that led me into a higher grade, I am a rabid fan of anime, books, art, and video games. (I dislike very much the XBox and its destructive properties, so any conversation about that I will not be able to relate to). Concerning anime, I love just about anything that includes either vampires or demons, such as Yu Yu Hakusho. Anything too sappy or pointless I can't stand, and I DO NOT SUPPORT HENTAI OR ANY OF ITS AFFILIATES! That is disgusting and very demeaning to humanity. I also, if anyone would like to know, dislike yiff. Animal copulation is meant to be seen by animals, if you would like my opinion. My book interests are much the same, as I absolutely love the series Cirque du Freak. I also read Dean Koontz and Stephen King, and sometimes dabble in old literature such as The Oddesey and the works of great poets like Edgar Allen Poe. Artwise, I am an otaku and I love any form of Japanese animation or cartooning. The style of Brueghel and Dali also interest me. And, ah, video games. I love playing Kingdom Hearts II and Tekken 5 on the PS2, and I am currently engulfed in Yoshi's Island 3 on the GBA. Anyway, my vicarious interests out of the way, I digress. I'm, as you may have or may not have noticed, a very complicated person. I'm not a cheerful, enigmatic, carefree teen like most others are. No, I'm not a problem child and I do happen to love my life. It's just not how I was raised. Besides on the computer, where I am able to express my true ingenuity with words, I am not very talkative. In school, I am the quiet, bashful little creature that pays avid attention to the teacher and is quite awkward in socializing. Though, I can be quite a rambunctious person around good friends. Despite my cold or indifferent nature, though, I am really a good person beneath my icy disposition. I have a soft heart for animals, which is why I treasure my little Cocker-Spaniel and Maltese mix. Anyhow, I shall get back to this another time, as I am being kicked off the Internet. Some freedoms are denied the younger generations.

well sorry if i took up your time, but honestly this bothered me.

hugs and kisses,
-J