I love Valentines day! I love it so so so much and there are only 10 days left!!! How many of you love Valentines Day? okay. How many of you don't like Valentines Day? Okay. How many of you dont care either way? Let me know. Oh, and why, yeah if u could, tell me why!

I am not single. First year i haven't been single for Valentines Day, and guess what! NO PLANS!!!!!!! I mean the first year i've had a bf(at V-day), and i still dont have any plans. Now dont that suck!! Yep. It sure does! I mean seriously! I dont know if he is romantically impaired or something but i'm startin to wonder, cause he didnt even CALL me on Christmas or New Years. Not even a freakin' phone call! Nothing! And I doubt i'll even get a card for v-day. But i love him, so i'm cool w/ it.

Oh, and that reminds me. This crazy ass chick wants my boyfriend!! It is funny as hell to me cause i dont even know her and she calls me and leaves a voicemail sayin i cant have him cause he's hers and stuff. Then the next time she calls, she tells me all this junk that she 'heard' and i was like WTF!!!!!!!!! Lord have mercy the things i put up with for my baby(Trey)!!! Lord if he only knew. Well he does know cause she called him too. And he told her that he had a girl and didnt want her. Lol, that is so funny to me.

Sorry if i seem a lil bit differnt tonight. Its the Superbowl Craze gettin to me!!!! LOL. TTyl!

hugs and kisses to y'all all!,
J

P.S. Yes Shayla, you can but i'd rather Sami, cause i dont like Sam, but it's really up to you.

Well i am back together w/ my ex boyfriend. Things aren't the same but they are still great! We dated for 4 1/2 months before, and it's been together for 4 days now! lol, i don't know, i do love him though, and i know that, but my problem is that i don't know if he loves me for me. He doesn't know me as personally as other ppl do. But i don't think i know him personally either.

Well i am sick at the moment. Strep throat and Larengitis, together which SUX beyond belief!!!!!! And my baby sister has surgery on Friday. She had mastoiditis a few weeks ago, and has had continuous ear infections for about a year, and i have been saying that she needed tubes in her ears. I would know seeing as how i've had 3 sets. Oh for those who dont know, tubes aren't the same or close to hearing aids. They are surgically inserted into ur ear and they help w/ some junk dats real nasty. But she is going on Friday and i'm real nervous. If you could, please pray for her.
well ttyl!

Hugs and kisses,
Lady J

p.s, since my last post, i am doing much better!

It's hard to explain
So I won't.
No matter how bad I want to,
I don't.

The anger and the sadness
cannot compare to the pain.
I try to call for help,
I feel like I'm going insane.

So as if I'm as calm as ever,
I let it all out.
I don't tell anyone,
I don't scream, I don't shout.

I will soon be calm again
as the pain flows away.
All the pain, hurt, sadness, and rage
are gone, for today.

These feelings, I am sure,
will soon re-occur.
And this pattern will happen
Then things will be as they were,
Until.....Begin at the top....

This is a poem i wrote after i cut the last time it happened. I hope that you understand it, and for people who didnt understand the poem itself, I wrote what it was about in the title.


Love you all!,
Lady J

I gave in.......

I let pain override my mind