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 unfortunately uneventful
 

Well last time i posted, i told you all about my girlfriend Danielle. And I mentioned that the next time i posted, I'd tell you about what happened at her house.

Alrighty then, here goes. We spent a night at her house, then a night at mine, then a night at hers again. We were both laying in her bed and she was playing with her phone and i thought she was texting someone. Then she handed it to me and it was something along the lines of "would you ever kiss me?" and so that night we kept writing back and forth on her cell and I told her that even if I wanted to kiss her, I wouldnt b/c I'm too shy to make the first move. So we kept talking about how if I wanted to, I should just do it, but I'm too shy and all.

Then the next night we went back to my house, and stayed there two nights. Then went back to hers.

That night, she practically begged me to kiss her, but I cant. I'm too shy to kiss someone. I never make the first move. I just cant, I honestly cant even if I really really want to. Then I think she thought I didnt want to kiss her(I do want to, but i cant, so i want her to kiss me)and she said "well I dont want to pressure you into doing anything you dont want to do" and she got really sad, so I fell asleep. Then the next day I went babysitting with her, and spent the night again cuz she got all upset and asked me to stay another night. The next day, she had to work again, so she left about 5, and around 10 her dad brought me home.

See, the problem is, I really want to be able to kiss her and everything, but I'm super shy. I dont want her to think I dont want to, cuz I really do, its just after all the sexual abuse in my past, i'm nervous about being 'intimate' with someone, even if it is just a kiss, I get scared. I do love this girl though, and I just wish I knew what to do...

Well so thats my uneventful stay with her..

Hugs and Kisses,
Lady J
Posted by Lady J at 7:56 PM - 4 Comments   Add a Comment  
 

 sowy i havent been on much lately
 

i know i should have been on more
sowy
and i have the same excuse as usual unfortunately.
lol
i've been busy.

well i have a girlfriend now! yay! Shes been my best friend for about two almost three years. Her name is Danielle, i love her to death! As a friend and more, lol. We've been together almost a month.

Shes the one that was watching me type the last post, so thats why i couldnt say anything about her. But she is amazing. shes beautiful, sweet, nice, caring, trustworthy, honest & an amazing friend.

Thanks to Cody(his blog on here is My Life as a Gay Teen, well anyway, he told me once when i was going through my crush on her and trying to decipher my feelings, he told me to go for it and that i should tell her how i felt and a few other pieces of advice, but thanks to him i told her at her house one night. Well by the end of the night she asked me to be her g/f. Which was awesome!

Right now shes grounded and she got her phone taken away, so i havent talked to her much since about 2 weeks ago, but tonight she called from her mom's cell phone and told me that she was sorry she got grounded and she was just calling to talk and stuff and then she told me she LOVED ME!

Talk about happy! i was ecstatic!

I mean she has told me she loved me once before but not the same way, so i was super happy.

Oh! And i want to tell yall about when she asked me out. Well I was staying the night with her, and everything and well anyways, we were in her room and she was on the phone with a friend she wanted me to meet and all and before she had got on the phone we were both sitting in her room and all and she asked me did i still remember the person she told me she liked back when we were in school, and of course i didnt. Well she finally told me who it was, and it was ME! lol. So then i let her read a letter that i wrote to her in my diary(i never planned for her to read it before, but when she told me, i decided to tell her) And i didnt tell her who it was from or anything. Well she asked who it was to and i couldnt tell her i got all tongue-tied and started blushing when i looked at her so i put a pillow in my face to cover it and she was like "Is this to me???" and i nodded into the pillow and she like jumped and was like omg!! So then she got a phone call from a friend she'd called earlier that she wanted me to meet and anyways while she was talking, she wrote down on a piece of paper "would you ever go out with me?" and underlined "would you ever" and i wrote back "prolly" and she said "then will you go out with me" and i said "yes!" and she wrote "yeah" and said "is that how u spell yay?" i laughed and wrote yay and said thats how you spell it. lol

well so anyways she came to stay with me the next night, then the night after that, we stayed at her house. I'll tell you what happened then in my next post.

lol

Hugs and Kisses to my lovely friends,
Lady J
Posted by Lady J at 12:13 AM - No Comments   Add a Comment  
 

 hey yall!
 

hey pplz i was just writin to say hey and send my love and see wats up! Soooo whats up with yall?? Tell plz! lolz

A lot has changed lol but not much that i can say right now as someone is watching me type (hehehe)

 

well hit me up i'd love to hear from yall

(plz comment)

 

Hugs and Kisses,

Lady J

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